Feeling Inadequate

Well, it has been a while, yet again I’ve had very little motivation to even sit down and write for the past week. I started this blog in the hope I’d help or inspire someone else in a similar situation. But I also did it for myself, and I’ve had nothing useful to share. It’s been a hard couple of weeks, not for any...

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Family After Children

Now, this post may get me in trouble, but it’s only really about a specific set of people that are on my side of the family. I’ve refrained from writing about this topic for some time. Partly because I know that some of them may read this and I have no way of knowing and people who know them read my blog. But I...

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Making New Memories

Well, I’ve not attempted to write a post for a week. I’ve wanted to want too, but I had no direction and I didn’t want to put something out for you to read that I wasn’t proud of. But I’m here now, attempting to write something. As you know if you’ve read my last post that I’ll link you for below that both of...

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Birthday Preparations

Their birthday…I need to write about this but I honestly have no idea where to start. Theoretically my children turning one and two should be the happiest of occasions. That still is the case of course, in some ways. But a year ago on the birth of my youngest daughter I nearly died. And so did she. I woke up on my daughters first...

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How People Like To “Fill Space”

I say this a lot in my life, “why do people feel the need to fill space?” We all do this, I’ve been consciously been making an effort for the past year not too. When people open up and talk about their lives we feel this need to comment. A general comment is expected, of course, that is what a conversation is. But we...

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Postnatal Depression – Was That Me?

Postnatal depression is a bit of a taboo subject and definitely not talked about enough. There’s this stigma attached to postnatal depression that means as a mother you are incapable or dangerous. I’m not going to sugarcoat it, some mothers who get to a really bad place can be a danger to themselves or their children. We’ve seen it in the news before about...

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Parenthood – Experiencing It Alone

As I’m writing this post it is the last day of me having both my girls to myself. This is the fifth and final day Oliver has been away having a break with his friends. I honestly thought to parent alone for 5 days and nights to two children under 2 would be unmanageable, but it wasn’t. Poppy is very much a daddy’s girl,...

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Nursery – Tips for Finding Your Perfect Match

Any child starting nursery or school for the first time is daunting for any parent. Making the decision to put Poppy into nursery was hard but we knew it was necessary. Some people may think being nearly two is too young but early intervention is definitely best in our opinion. Poppy struggles socially with other children and adults even those she’s familiar with. Putting...

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Our Neonatal Journey With Holly

This part two of Holly’s birth and neonatal stay. The first part is “My Baby Was Born to Save Me” which will be linked below. If you haven’t read part one this post won’t make much sense. This post is only in two sections as it was hard for me to write the whole thing in one go and I really do try and...

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My Baby Was Born To Save Me

There are 364 days between my eldest Poppy and my youngest Holly. I’ve not talked a great deal about Holly so far on here. In all honesty, it is still a hard subject for me to even think about. Nevermind sharing how my youngest baby was brought into the world. But I find sharing very therapeutic so here goes. 28th September 2018 – The...

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5 Tips On Communication

We started our speech and language journey with Poppy a few months ago. Two months isn’t a long time at all but only a few weeks after her initial assessment we saw some slight improvements and then it plateaued. It was concerning but after a review with her therapist we were reassured that she is heading in the right direction. So for those of...

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Marriage After Trauma – How We Coped

When I talk about my relationship I always use the term “the things we’ve been through should have broken us” but it didn’t. Having two pregnancies that included bleeds and a rare pregnancy condition, a stroke diagnosis in a newborn, two brain surgeries in three months, an emergency c-section that resulted in me losing 4 litres of blood and our babies heart-stopping and a...

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A Trip to the Zoo

There’s nothing like taking your child somewhere that theoretically should be enjoyable. I mean what child doesn’t enjoy looking at animals? My child. Now it’s not that she wouldn’t or didn’t have a nice time. But it wasn’t the conventional time you would expect to have as a parent. it wasn’t the experience I’d hoped for when she was born. But we knew so little...

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What Communication?

I was always very aware during my pregnancy with Poppy that she may not be born healthy. This wasn’t anything to do with my pregnancy but I just knew it was smart to not expect her to be born and have no issues. I had seven weeks of being her mum before the mum I had started to become changed forever. Now if this...

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